A "GET REAL MOMENT"!!!!!

Thanks to Courtney for her wonderful idea of a "GET REAL" blog entry! I feel as though everything I write is the REAL ME however, I don't discuss the things that I dread, fear, hate, or the things that are really hard to handle very often. There are so many things that happen to me daily that I feel may not be interesting or I have no idea how I would bring them up to talk about them. Some things just aren't your normal everyday conversations and I think we probably worry no one wants to hear them. I really love knowing the good, the bad and the skinny of everyone, it helps make me feel human. So I am letting LOOSE!!!!

1. I am not much for sweets, except for my SODA every morning and throughout the day, I have convinced myself that I need the caffeine to get going. I am sure this sounds really bad since I am pregnant-however I have consulted my doctors on this one!

2. I can't keep a clean car!!!! At any moment when you open the door you are likely to have something JUMP out at you! I have decided to except this as just part of my life right now. Probably a little to much.

3. I would love to have a clean house, however the time and effort to keep it immaculate isn't worth it to me. I can always find more IMPORTANT THINGS TO DO!!!
I have asked my husband to please except the idea that our home will always look LIVED IN!

4. According to my husband it has taken the better part of 11 years for me to gain a sense of humor.

5. Since my husband has been gone this summer I have learned that I can be way more productive. I have always thought that I wasn't a morning person and that I needed at least 8 hours of sleep. However, this summer has been just the opposite, a lot less sleep, early hours, and no help, and I have survived with surprising success! I really did depended upon my HONEY more before because I knew he would HELP! Now I know I can do more to HELP!

6. I love to cook, but I have a very difficult time making anything that I feel is unhealthily for my kids. I am a freak when I have to send them off to school and I didn't give them something nourishing to eat. I never buy Twinkies, fruit snacks, cookies, or ice cream. I don't want to give my kids a reasons to not eat the veggies and fruit in our house.

7. To offset my obsessions with healthy food in our home, I try to bake some treats here and there so my kids feel like kids and so I don't feel so guilty about my soda each day.

8. I don't cut coupons, or even make a grocery list! Coupons STRESS me O U T! I am a really simple cook. Our meals consist of a side of meat, a veggie, and salad. So I don't really have to plan a whole lot. This is also because of my health obsession.

9. I have been known to have a TEMPER!!!! WHen it comes to people that are rude, judgemental, or have problems with road rage OR when my husband deletes all the pictures off my camera that I have taken the whole week of our vacation-Hint, this just happened!

10. I can't stand the feeling of dirt or sand on my hands. So you won't find my in my backyard playing randomly. I really have to make myself when my kids ask.

11. I have had a really hard time learning the difference between raising a boy and raising girls. The lack of common sense and the desire to "just do" before thinking has been very hard for me to appreciate! Good thing for the POWER OF PRAYER and the guidiance my Heavenly Father gives me.

12. I love to read, however I have not yet learned to let myself enjoy a book that's fictional! The only ones I desire are ones on health, parent, adoption, or church related!

13. I HAVE NO IMAGINATION!!!! Now you might understand why I don't read fictional book. I have never watched a Star wars movie and have no desire to.

14. I hate STUPID COMEDIES that my husband considers "the classics" such as Dumb and Dumber, Nacho Libre, THE OFFICE- I think you get it. They are a waste of time!

15. I have a HORRIBLE fear of spiders. There legs just creep me out.

16. I get so many looks as I drive my 12-passenger van, most are probably because it's shocking to see someone so young driving it, and the other reason is probably because I am the only owner of such a van with only 4 kids piling in and out of it! The backseat makes for a great time out! I have a huge love for my van because I have the hopes of one day filling it.

17. I only finished HIGH SCHOOL. I never had any idea of what I wanted to do for college so I didn't want to waste any money on classes I wasn't sure about. So I don't feel very intellectual. I would be lost if it weren't for spell check on my computer.

18. I am always the last to say "I'm sorry" with my husband and the first to tell him why he has hurt my feelings.

19.I have a HUMUNGIOUS fear to loud noise that are out of my control.

20. I am impatient-when it comes to having to get something done, I want to get it done right away, and it is really hard for me when I have to wait on other people that I can't make go faster.

21. I am a very social person-however I feel that this has become a lot more challenging for me over the years. I must have some sort of socializing or I will go crazy!

22. I am a very emotional person- I cry over commericals, songs, books, & stories that relate to people personally.

23. I very much hope to adopt more children one day. I also find it the most emotional roller coaster full of ups and downs that others around me can't understand. It's difficult to feel as though you are responsible for bringing your family together and you have to search the globe to do it. Then you have to rely on continual prayer and have faith that it will happen. It can be exhausting!

24. The top one on my list is that I feel as though I am the least talented person in the world!

I tell you all this because I have found it to be liberating and empowering when I try to except everything about myself. When I found out I had a mental illness, I also found out that there are a lot of other people out there that go through things they just didn't know how to share and when we talked about those things and excepted them, they no longer seemed as difficult. I have also realized that all things make us unique, even the ones we don't talk about. We are made up of many qualities some which we would consider good and some we would consider bad. If it wasn't for all of them we wouldn't be us. Some of these qualities are there for us to grow and some are there for us to feel special. We should all be more inclined to share it all and willing to listen to others who want to share. I know we weren't sent to earth as perfect people, this is where we are to learn, let's have fun learning from each other. I had a lot of fun doing this!!!