OBEDIENCE!

Last night I was chatting with my sister for quite a while about the trials we both have endured recently. After our conversation I still had a lot on my mind so I took up our conversation with Casey(until he fell asleep on me)!!!! I had so many things floating around in my head and my first thought was to get up and just write every word that came to mind down. But it was late and I was tired and didn't want to get out of bed. So I just laid there contemplating. The question I posed to myself is, how do I, my family move forward towards adopting again knowing that we've been given the knowledge to proceed forward with the many adoption opportunities in the past that have all failed? How do I move forward feeling good, knowing it's what we are to do, but not letting the doubt take over of what's happened in the past. It's hard not to think that I have been blessed with this knowledge before, I have felt this peace and comfort but in the end it didn't work out. What makes the next time any different? I started to think of situations in the scriptures where there were a lot of trials but those being tried kept moving forward. I thought of Nephi when he was asked to obtain the plates of brass and how he was given many obstacles and had to keep trying over and over. What kept him going was the knowledge of what he was asked to do and he was determined to be obedient. I also thought of the early Saints who were pushed from settlement to settlement, working so hard to re-establish themselves each time. I thought of how they must have felt when they lost what they worked so hard on. All the time and materials that went into the church buildings, stores and Temples, to only see it destroyed each time. But they kept going, they started over and over again. Or, the Saints crossing the plains and how they endured so many trials and tribulations along the long journey to the promise land. They continued to stay true to the knowledge that they needed to proceed forward as they were guided by the Prophet Brigham Young and they offered much faith and obedience and sacrificed all that was asked of them in the name of faith.

Mosiah 5: 5
5. And we are willing to enter into a covenant with our God to do his will, and to be obedient to his commandments in all things that he shall command us, all the remainder of our days, that we may not bring upon ourselves a never-ending torment, as has been spoken by the angel, that we may not drink out of the cup of the wrath of God.

So after all this running through my head, I came to the direction I felt we are to go next. Ask for reconfirmation, the knowledge we have been blessed with in the past, that adoption is right for our family and that his timing is now.

Alma 32:34-35
34. And now, behold, is your knowledge perfect? Yea, your knowledge is perfect in that thing, and your faith is dormant; and this because you know, for ye know that the word hath swelled your souls, and ye also know that it hath sprouted up, that your understanding doth begin to be enlightened, and your mind doth begin to expand.
35. O then, is not this real? I say unto you, Yea, because it is light; and whatsoever is light, is good, because it is discernible, therefore ye must know that it is good; and now behold, after ye have tasted this light is your knowledge perfect?
If my answer is YES I must and will proceed forward in faith with the desire to be obedient just like Nephi and just like the Saints!

No looking back for me or focusing on the past but looking towards the future doing what Heavenly Father has asked me to do.

Ether 12:6
6. And now, I, Moroni, would speak somewhat concerning these things; I would show unto the world that faith is things which are hoped for and not seen; wherefore, dispute not because ye see not, for ye receive no witness until after the trial of your faith.