COMMENCEMENT!

First off I would like to apologize to those of you(all 2 of you) that have checked my blog repeatedly to see if there were any new posts and there weren't time and time again.

This past month has brought on many changes. Some exciting, and some difficult. The greatest change that we have went through this month was the realization that our adoption of our three beautiful Haitian children will no longer be happening. Today was the first day that I have been able to admit that to anyone, even myself. I have told my children, my husband, and God that I wouldn't give up on these kids no matter what obstacles came our way. That I (we) would do all we could. I am however grateful to say that we have done that. Our children have been very unselfish, willing to give what they have(time and money) to our cause for the adoption. Casey and I have tackled what seemed like weekly issues, and we did so in faith knowing that the Lord would provide the right outcome. We have never given up and we still aren't. Even though it is painful I now realize that our, My loving Heavenly Father has other plans for our family and for our Haitian children.

After so many answered prayers to know these children, to feel connected with them and to have these overwhelming feelings of love and devotion to them, it has been an amazing experience. I have really learned to rely on faith. I have a much larger testimony of the power of prayer. I am ever so grateful for our journey that our family has been through this past year. It has been one of the most difficult journey's, but in the process has taught us to grow in our reliance upon GOD much much more.

I have mourned our losses this past month for so many reasons. I now pray for stength to ask for the ability to let go, and for peace and comfort in knowing the Lord has wonderful plans in our Haitian children's lives.

Through this process we have met some remarkable families, I am glad that we have had this opportunity. I have loved hearing their strong testimonies of their faith in God and in their and own adoptions journeys, it has helped me in so many ways.

I know as this chapter ends in our stunning book of life, another will begin. I continue to look forward to what is to come. I know we have been prepared for a reason.